Be You!

Gosh.........this is a tough one Moriah!

I am a neat freak who tries to be messy in order to get over my obsession with cleaning. And it's not necessarily the cleanliness that gets me fired up, it's the tidiness and things being out of order and that drive me up the wall! For example............I cannot sit down and relax at night if there is an object, like a toy or even a stray leaf carried in from outside, laying in the middle of the floor. I never used to be like this, but I have transformed into this obsessive person after having Ashlyn. I, unlike most, strive to be messy instead of clean. What is up with that? It's humorous to me now, but once I get home in the eveinings I am overwhelmed with STRESS if one thing is not put back into it's original spot, or an empty plastic cup has not been thrown in the trash. I literally can't relax until I've straightened the house up and swiffered the floors. So I'm clean, and I'm good at it, but I don't want to be SOOOO obsessed with things that I get my panties all in a wad over toys not being picked up immediately after Ashlyn's pulled them out. I need to get a grip, especially with a little boy on the way! This little guy is going to ROCK MY WORLD if I can't get over this little cleaning obsession before he arrives. LOL!
There are many many other things that make up who I am, but right now at this very moment, this is a huge part of me that I'm trying to overcome. So, today I'm a neat freak, but hopefully down the road I can turn into that messy person who drives me batty today! =)