Emotions

Last week was such and emotional roller coaster. Ashlyn started her first day of school on Tuesday and she did great! I was worried about how I would handle her starting Kindergarten and seeing her walk into that classroom..........coming to the realizatin that my baby is growing up faster than I want her to and before I know it she will be in middle school, then high school, then she will be out of the house and in college..........gone. Being a parent is truly the best gift that God can give! The love that you feel for your children is truly amazing. There is no love like that............NONE! You will simply do anything and everything to make sure that they are safe, and when something does go wrong your heart simply hits the floor. That happened last week.

Brennan had been sick with a fever of 104 since the Friday before last. I had taken him to the doctor, and the doctor looked him over and did some bloodwork. He told me that he felt like Brennan had a 48 hour virus and that he should be feeling better by Sunday..............just let it runs it's course. By Sunday he was still sick, but his fever was a little lower. Monday I of course kept he out of daycare. His fever had broke and he was playing, finally back to his old self again. Tuesday I took him back to daycare. That afternoon I got a frightening call from them that when he woke up from his nap he had a fever of 104.6! How could this be? He was fine yesterday. I called Britt and had him rush to pick him up. I left work and met them at the doctor's office. The doctor looked him over once again and said that he felt like he had developed a sinus infection and that he was going to start him on an antibiotic. I had an eerie feeling that it was not an infection at all, but the flu. I questioned the doctors diagnosis, but he insisted that my child did not have the flu. Britt then jumped in the conversation and asked if we could just have a flu test to confirm. The doctor was hesitant, but told us that he would do one just to make us feel better. Twenty minutes later he came in with the news that no mother wants to hear...................Positive..........the swine flu! He was shocked. I was shocked. I was sad. I was mad. I had so many emotions running through me at that very moment that I didn't know what to say. He started Brennan on 2 flu medications and an antibiotic to ward off any kind of infection like pneumonia. He also started Ashlyn, Britt, and me on flu medication as well since we had all been exposed to this rapidly spreading virus that you are hearing about on every news station that you turn to. Why did he not do a flu test on Friday? Brennan had all of the signs. Another sign that is a fever that will go away for a day or two and then come back. How did the doctor not know this? Tuesday night Mom came over and Brennan's fever was 104.1 with tylenol and motrin. He didn't even have enough strength to open his eyes and he was throwing up because his fever was so high. We were both in tear and our nerves were shot. We were ready to take him to the ER because we were worried about him becoming dehydrated. I was worried sick. He finally began to take in some fluids and by Wednesday he was taking a turn for the better.
We have all been flu free so far. I'm just praying that Ashlyn doesn't get it! I don't know if I can go through seeing another child of mine suffer like that again. Check out this page for swine flu information swineflufacts .
Also, Ashlyn had brought a book home from school yesterday titled, I'll Love You Forever. We read it at bedtime and I bawled! It is a great book and if you have kids you definitely need to go out and buy a copy of it! Here's a link to the story - I'llloveyouforever . Get a box of tissues.