Extreme Home Makeover

I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!!!! It was GREAT tonight. They were helping a family who had given everything that they had to try to make the little boys life as great as it possibly could be. The hospital had found a brain tumor when the little boy was 4 years old. Could you imagine getting that kind of news. It makes my stomach turn just thinking about it. The little boy had a lot of courage, but now enought to fight off this terrible disease. There was a quote at the end of the show that went something like this, he may be gone, but you have to keep living on through all of the memories that you have of your loved one. I cried and cried and cried!!! That show is great. It always leaves me wondering what I can do for others in our community to help make their life a little better. I always learn alot from this show, but tonight I learned a great deal about life. It just shows that even if you have a huge loss, you have to keep giving life your all and living on through the great times and memories.

I don't know why, and I guess it's pretty normal, but I have a really hard time trying to ignore the little silly "what if" thoughts. I think them every day. Sometime more than others. What if something would happen to Ashlyn?, What if something would happen to my husband, my parents, my family, my friends, etc.... I also worry about something happening to me and it just kills me to think that I may miss out on my daughter's life. Am I crazy for doing this? I know that we are supposed to live everyday as it is our last. I think that I am a worrier just like my mammaw Drum. She would worry over anything and everything. I just honestly do not know if I could handle losing a child. I think that I would literally go crazy. Life is so scary! You take what you are given and make the best of it. It's not that I'm scared of death itself. I'm scared of losing that great time with our loved ones, and just knowing that you aren't going to have any more time like that to spend with them.

You always hear everyone say that they LOVE LIFE, but you never hear anyone say that they LOVE DEATH. With death you just try to make the best out of it that's possible. Just keep living on those wonderful memories!